Skinny People are Annoying.....maybe not

Skinny people are annoying. Have you ever noticed that? I have always steered clear of them. Most of my friends have always been like me, not in top physical shape. People who understand what a food is to binge on.

But I realized something recently. Skinny people are not the problem. My own guilt has been. It has dawned on me, I was feeling less than adequate because they were doing the work that I just made excuses for avoiding. It was all in my head. Yeah there are those skinnies that talk about their workouts to the point of annoyance. But I realized they are not doing it to make me feel bad. It isn't bragging. They just feel so good that they have finally gotten on track and are staying there. Talking about it helps them stay on track. I realized it because I am now feeling that very same way.

How did I figure this out? I have friends that cut me off when I talk about my workout. They roll their eyes and shut me down when I want to talk about my weight loss. I used to do that, I somehow thought I was being preached at.

I am making my friends uncomfortable. I don't mean to. I want to share a part of my life. We offer each other suggestions and opinions in every other part of our lives. My friends are more than willing to listen to me talk about my husband being a jerk. Or my children turning my hair gray. But why is it when it comes to weight issues we shut one another down?

I am finally making a positive and healthy change in my life. And it is working and paying off. But I am feeling like there is no one to share it with. And I know I need to get it all out, share how I am feeling so I can stay on track. None of us can do this in a vacuum. I think that is why people have a hard time staying on track. Because no one wants to hear it. There isn’t the usual support system in place.

We all want a pill that will make all the fat go away. Or an unrealistic that we can either be a martyr for sticking to, or we can be forgiven for falling off of. But that isn’t the way this works. This is a lifetime of habits that have to be changed. Like biting your nails. Something that will always be with you, just like your fingers are attached to you, you have to eat every day. And you have to think of every moment of everyday.

So here I am sharing and venting on an anonymous webpage. An opportunity to share. And maybe find a willing ear. Or maybe not. I have lost my mind. I am working on being one of those annoying skinny people. But you know what, this is about being healthy. And wearing whatever the hell I want.

There is a key to not dieting. I eat what I want. I just make a point of working out. I go to bed earlier so I can get up earlier. That way I have the time to get in some aerobic activity while the kids are getting ready for school. And everyone can do that. We just have to quit making excuses. There are always free pieces of equipment in the paper or on the roadside. I know if there are here in small town Alaska, they are everywhere.