Out of the Groove... house guests and other distractions

I am an all or nothing kind of person. At least when it comes to working out. I have a hard time taking time out from working out and then getting back on track. Why is this important? My workout routine has been disrupted.

The room that houses my bowflex has been taken over by invading relatives. I moved the bike into my bedroom. But the bowflex has felt off limits. We had out of town relatives staying in the room for a week and then we have a niece in there. I don’t want to invade anyone’s privacy, or wake anyone up. But I workout in the morning. I have to do it before my shower. I know that may sound ridged. But give me too much time during the day to think about it and I will skip it. I will find an excuse. But those that have been staying in that room sleep until 10 or later. I have kids in school. My day starts early.

Compound that with the fact that I have been sick. I have gotten some nasty virus that makes every inch in my body hurt. Why babble on about this? Because I know left to my old behaviors I will not start my workout again, at least not for 6 months. I figure if I ramble on about this I will have to face the issue and deal with it. Harder to deny when you name it. Right? I hope so.

I have felt sorry for myself. So what did I do? One box of cookies and 9 candy bars. I have eaten them all in 2.5 days. I know that is terrible, no one should do that. But it took me 2.5 days to eat that crap! Not that many months ago I could/would have eaten that in ………………… 2.5 hours. Did I say that out loud? Yes I did.

I used to be one of those people who denied over eating. I would deny that my eating was a problem. I did my eating in private so it didn’t count, right? Bullshit! It does count. Just cutting out those private eating sessions have reduced my weight. I still eat whatever I want at meal times. I go to McD’s and get a greasy burger and fries. I have real sour cream on my baked potato. Every Friday I have real pizza with my kids. I don’t eat south beach, atkins, weight watchers or any other prepackaged cardboard. I eat real food. But I am still losing weight. Why? Because I cut out those secret binges. That is where my real calorie consumption was taking place

Do I have some amazing willpower? Get real. I faced what I was really eating for the first time. I wrote down everything I ate, even the stuff that no one saw me eat. I grossed myself out. It is like trying to eat while sitting across from an open mouth two fisted eater. You know that person that drools out more than they swallow.

Now I find I cannot eat as much as I used to. That is why it took me 2.5 days not 2.5 hours to eat that crap. I am embracing the new me. I will get back on that bike, I will negotiate a deal with the house guest and I will do my work out. I will! But first I will get over this crud. I started this journey, and I will finish it. Because you know what I really do feel good about it. I may not be losing weight like someone on a tv commercial. But I know this time I am making the lifestyle changes that will stick. And ones a human can live with. Next I will tackle smoking. But hey one Mt. Everest at a time.